I have decided to move on to a new genre of blogs - food blog... So here's goodbye to all those you had the patience and enthusiam to go through this blog. The new blog is:

http://myculinarypursuits.blogspot.com

I volunteered to be one of the bloggers for the official site at Queens. You can check out my posts at http://business.queensu.ca/mbast/blogs

The site doesnt allow you to post comments. So you can still post comments at this blog. I will check it regularly and moght update it as and when time permits. With the kind of schedule I have these days I dont see myself updating multiple blogs.

Reached Kingston, Ontario, Canada on 29th April 2005 at 11:00 pm...... The journey was quite an uneventful one. The Paris airport was a very busy one. Bought a 500ml of water for a whopping 2 Euros :) Anyways the country sure is beautiful but man is it cold or what.... And the locals tell that its the warmer part of the year... I am already dreading winters. Even though everything inside the buildings is heated the transition from a comfortably warm temperature inside the rooms to a chilling weather outside is killing... What makes it worse is that there is no way one cover every part of the body, some part or the other is always exposed... Trying to get proper woollen collection in place but as its the spring time there arent many good sales happening and being a student who has enough liabilties to worry about I am not planning to spend lavishly :)

Bought a laptop today. Got a pretty decent deal. A sony vaio.... It is a sexy looky machine... brand new begging to be used :)

Tomorrow the course starts and they have already given us a good 10 hour schedule.... This is when there are no classes and just the introductions and orientations...

Anyways keep a look out for this place. I am planning to update this with a series on the miseries of a desi doing MBA in a cold country like Canada...

I have never felt so helpless ....

Nothing is in my hand right now.

Whether I succeed or not depends on some strangers sitting in Delhi. They will get to decide my future. Wish there was something I could do.........

Took the personality disorder test and got the following results

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Low
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	Low
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
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This is the first post I am writing sitting in my new company. Life here is so much different from what it was back in TI. Its a much smaller company than TI but the enthu which people have for everything is awe-inspiring. I love to new surroundings.
Work hasnt started in the true sense of the word but have been doing something or the other since I came here.

Every day is a new learning experience since even a small thing which I do here is a big achievement for me as its the first time I do it and without anyone's help. So i am generally very satisfied these days. Dont crib much about life and enjoy every moment of it. Or atleast thats the image I put up in front of others.

But then somewhere deep inside a fear lurks. A fear which is slowly destroying me from inside and I have no idea what to do about it.When I talk about it, I am told that I am being unreasonable and that all my thoughts are baseless...

But if only someone could look at it from my point of view they would know what is the genesis of this feeling.

If only life was not such an unsolved mystery.......

If only ......

I am finally leaving TI. Leaving it after 3 long years. Have enjoyed every moment of my life here. Its a great company to begin one's career with. I was lucky to have got such a big start.

I still remember, I wanted to be a part of TI ever since I decided to do engineering. It was my dream company and I was fortunate to have got the opportunity to work here for three fruitful years. Will value this experience forever.....

Now I am scared. Scared to venture out of this comfort zone.
But as they say "Your current safe boundries were once unknown frontiers". So I will conquer the new territories too !!!!!